Catapult

All of the sudden she disappears
just yesterday she was here
somebody tell me if I am sleeping
someone should be with me here
(cause I don’t wanna be alone)

I wanna be the knife that cuts into my hand
and I wanna be scattered from here in this catapult
What a big baby won’t somebody save me please
You won’t find nobody home

all of these quiet battered voices
wait for the hunger to come
we got little revolvers and stupid choices
and no one to say when we’re done
(Well I don’t wanna bring you down)

I wanna be the light that burns out your eyes
‘cause I know there’s little things about me
that would sing in the silence of so much rejection
in every connection I make
I can’t find nobody home
I wanna be the last thing you hear when you’re falling asleep…

Angels of the silences

Well I guess you left me with some feathers in my hand
Did it make it any easier to leave me where I stand?
I guess there might not be too many who would stand beside you now
Where’d you come from? Where am I going?
Why’d you leave me ‘till I’m only good for…

Waiting for you
All my sins…
I said that I would pay for them if I could come back to you
All my innocence is wasted on the dead and dreaming

Every night these silhouettes appear above my head
Little angels of the silences that climb into my bed and whisper
Every time I fall asleep Every time I dream
“Did you come? Would you lie?
Why’d you leave us ‘till we’re only good for…

Waiting for you”
All my sins…
I said that I would pay for them if I could come back to you
All my innocence is wasted on the dead and dreaming

I dream of Michelangelo when I’m lying in my bed
Little angels hang above my head and read me like an open book
Suck my blood, break my nerve offer me their arms
Well, I will not be an enemy of anything
I’ll only stand here

Waiting for you
All my sins…
I said that I would pay for them if I could come back to you
All my innocence is wasted on the dead and dreaming

Daylight fading

Waiting for the moon to come and light me up inside
And I am waiting for the telephone to tell me I’m alive
Well I heard you let somebody get their fingers into you
It’s getting cold in California
I guess I’ll be leaving soon

Daylight fading
Come and waste another year
All the the anger and the eloquence are bleeding into fear
Moonlight creeping around the corners of our lawn
When we see the early signs that daylight’s fading
We leave just before it’s gone

She said “everybody loves you,”
she says, “everybody cares”
But all the things I keep inside myself
they vanish in the air
If you tell me that you’ll wait for me
I’ll say I won’t be here
I want to say good-bye to you
Good-bye to all my friends
Good-bye to everyone I know

Daylight fading
Come and waste another year
All the the anger and the eloquence are bleeding into fear
Moonlight creeping around the corners of our lawn
When we see the early signs that daylight’s fading
We leave just before it’s gone

I’m not sleeping

She comes to me at night when I’m sleeping
She comes to me when I’m alone
She comes to me, she holds my head when I’m crying
She comes to me, she shuts my eyes
She brings me home

But I’m not sleeping anymore, anymore
But I’m not sleeping anymore, anymore

She tells me when you look at me, she tells me when you’re lying
She tells me when you talk about me, she lays me on the floor
She tells me when you’re whispering, she lies beside me naked
She tells me when you laugh at me and she locks all the doors

But I’m not sleeping anymore, anymore
But I’m not sleeping anymore, anymore

1-2-3-4-5-6-7a.m.
All alone again
But I’ve been through all this shit before
Spend my nights in self defense
Cry about my innocence
But I ain’t all that innocent anymore, more, more
I see her on the TV, I see her in the movies
I see her in these animals that dance inside my head
I’ll follow you down baby, down into this valley
I’ll follow you down baby, but I won’t come up again

But I’m not sleeping anymore, anymore
But I’m not sleeping anymore, anymore
I’m not sleeping
I’m not sleeping anymore

I said rain rain go away
come again some other day,
cause I got all this shit to say
but I’ve gone back to find my way.
My sister’s mother’s favorite son
lost among the chosen one,
but I’ve got news for everyone
cause I’m going out that door

Goodnight Elisabeth

I was wasted in the afternoon
Waiting on a train
I woke up in pieces and Elisabeth had disappeared again
I wish you were inside of me
I hope that you’re ok
I hope you’re resting quietly
I just wanted to say

Goodnight Elisabeth
Goodnight Elisabeth

We couldn’t all be cowboys
So some of us are clowns
Some of us are dancers on the midway
We roam from town to town
I hope that everybody can find a little flame
Me, I say my prayers, then I just light myself on fire
And I walk out on the wire once again

And I say
Goodnight Elisabeth
Goodnight Elisabeth

I will wait for you in Baton Rouge
I’ll miss you down in New Orleans
I’ll wait for you while she slips in something comfortable
And I’ll miss you when I’m slipping in between
If you wrap yourself in daffodils
I will wrap myself in pain
And if you’re the queen of California
Baby I am the king of the rain

And I say
Goodnight Elisabeth
Goodnight Elisabeth

Children in Bloom

Children in bloom cooking in the sun
Waiting for a room of our own
Leave my sister alone
She don’t deserve this
She is a flower and I am a flower and
We are all alone

I gotta get out on my own
I gotta get up from this waiting at home
I gotta get out of this sunlight
It’s melting my bones
I gotta get up from this slumber and get myself home

All these wasted dreams
Just waiting for the sun to open up my heart to anyone
Bring me some rain
Because I’m dying and I can’t get this damn thing closed again

I gotta get out on my own
I gotta get up from this waiting at home
I gotta get out of this sunlight
It’s melting my bones
I gotta get up from this slumber and get myself home

Where’s the funhouse this year?
the fairground’s deserted and the skies don’t seem as near
Nicole’s my oldest friend
but the altar is empty and she’ll never be a little girl again

I gotta get out on my own
I gotta get up from this waiting at home
I gotta get out of this sunlight
It’s melting my bones
I gotta get up from this slumber and get myself home
I can’t find my way home

Have You Seen Me Lately

Get away from me
This isn’t gonna be easy
But I don’t need you
Believe me
You got a piece of me
But it’s just a little piece of me
And I don’t need anyone
And these days I feel like I’m fading away
Like sometimes when I hear myself on the radio

Have you seen me lately?
Have you seen me lately?

I was out on the radio starting to change
Somewhere out in America, it’s starting to rain
Could you tell me the things you remember about me
And have you seen me lately?

I remember me
And all the little things that make up a memory
Like she said she loved to watch me sleep
Like she said:
“It’s the breathing, it’s the breathing in and out and in and…”

Have you seen me lately?
I was out on the radio starting to change
Somewhere out in America it’s starting to rain
Could you tell me the things you remember about me
And have you seen me lately?

I guess I thought that someone would notice
I guess I thought somebody would say something
If I was missing
Can’t you see me?
Come on color me in
Come on color me in
Give me your blue rain
Give me your black sky
Give me your green eyes
Come on give me your white skin
Come on give me your white skin
Come on give me your white skin
I was out on the radio starting to change

Somewhere out in America, it’s starting to rain
Could you tell me the things you remember about me
And have you seen me lately?
Have you seen me lately

Miller’s Angels

Miller’s angels in black and white
Welcome everyone in
Children dreaming of wrong and right
Wrapped in grace and in sin

They come out of the blue sky
They come out of the blue
They come out of the blue sky
But you never know where they’re gonna go
Hey Romeo

Miller’s fingers are traveling down the length of her thigh
But Miller’s mind is still wandering
Staring up at the sky

They come out of the blue sky
They come out of the blue
They come out of the blue sky
But you never know where they’re gonna go
Hey Romeo

Don’t, don’t come around here
Miller’s angels are hovering in between the earth and the sun
In the shadow of god’s unwavering love
I am a fortunate son

They come out of the blue sky
They come out of the blue

Another Horsedreamers’ Blues

Margery’s dreaming of the middle of the day
Tiyuri to win
Perfect Dozen to place
Money is the matter that’s been on her mind
Time ticks by her one race at a time
She’s trying’ to be a good girl
And give ‘em what they want
But Margery’s dreaming of horses

Looking’ at a green sky
Sun like a red eye
Bright blue horses are the fortune she lives by
She’s tired and lonely
Scared and depressed
Her visions of one day go racing the next
She’s trying to be a good girl
And give ‘em what they want
But Margery’s dreaming of horses

Margery doesn’t say anything all the way home
So afraid she’ll awake to find she’s all alone
Margery’s wingspan’s all feathers and coke cans, and
TV dinners and letters she won’t send, and
Every race night is shot through with sunlight
Trying to hit the big one one last time tonight for…
Drunken fathers and stupid mothers and
Boys who can’t tell one girl from another
So she takes her pills
Careful and round
One of these days she’s gonna throw the whole bottle down
But she’s trying to be a good girl
And give ‘em what they want

But Margery’s dreaming of…
Trying to be a good girl
And give ‘em what they want
But Margery’s dreaming of horses

Recovering the Satellites

Gonna get back to basics
Guess I’ll start it up again
I’m falling’ from the ceiling
You’re falling from the sky now and then
Maybe you were shot down in pieces
Maybe I slipped in between
But we were gonna be the wildest people they ever hoped to see
Just you and me

So why’d you come home to this sleepless town
It’s a lifetime commitment
Recovering the satellites
All anybody really wants to know is…
When you gonna come down

Your mother recognizes all you’re desperate displays
And she watches as her babies drift violently away
‘Til they see themselves in telescopes
Do you see yourself in me?
We’re such crazy babies, little monkey
We’re so fucked up, you and me

So why’d you come home to this faithless town
Where we make a lifetime commitment
To recovering the satellites
And all anybody really wants to know is…
When are you gonna come down

She sees shooting stars and comet tails
She’s got heaven in her eyes
She says I don’t need to be an angel
But I’m nothing if I’m not this high
But we only stay in orbit
For a moment of time
And then you’re everybody’s satellite
I wish that you were mine

So why’d you come home to this angels town
It’s a lifetime decision
Recovering the satellites
Everybody really knows for sure…
That you’re gonna come down
That you’re gonna come down

Monkey

All dressed up
No place to go
Hey monkey, when you gonna show your face around me?
I know all the wrongs and rights
And I just want a little light to fall on me

Hey monkey, where you been?
This lonely spiral I’ve been in
Hey monkey, when can we begin?
Hey monkey, where you been?

We’ll I’m all messed up
That’s nothing new
Hey monkey, when you open up your blue eyes
I don’t know if I’m wide awake or dreaming
But all I ever need is everything

Hey monkey, where you been?
This lonely spiral I’ve been in
Hey monkey, when can we begin?
Hey monkey, where you been?

Just get the world off your shoulders
And close your pretty blue eyes
Hey monkey, what’s life without an occasional surprise?

Got nowhere but home to go
Got Ben Folds on my radio right now
I’m in trouble for the things I need
Hey monkey don’t you want to be needed too?

Hey monkey, where you been?
This lonely spiral I’ve been in
Hey monkey, when can we begin?
Hey monkey, where you been?

Mercury

She is trapped inside a month of gray
And they take a little every day
She is a victim of her own responses
Shackled to a heart that wants to settle
And then runs away
It’s a sin to be fading endlessly
Yeah, but she’s all right with me

She is leaving on a walkaway
She is leaving me in disarray
In the absence of a place to be
She stands there looking back at me
Hesitates, and then turns away
She’ll change so suddenly
She’s just like mercury
Yeah, but she’s all right with me

Keep some sorrow in your hearts and minds
For the things that die before their time
For the restlessly abandoned homes
The tired and weary rambler’s bones
And stay beside me where I lie
She’s entwined in me
Crazy as can be
Yeah, but she’s all right with me

A Long December

A long December and there’s reason to believe
Maybe this year will be better than the last
I can’t remember the last thing that you said as you were leaven’
Now the days go by so fast

And it’s one more day up in the canyons
And it’s one more night in Hollywood
If you think that I could be forgiven…I wish you would

The smell of hospitals in winter
And the feeling that it’s all a lot of oysters, but no pearls
All at once you look across a crowded room
To see the way that light attaches to a girl

And it’s one more day up in the canyons
And it’s one more night in Hollywood
If you think you might come to California…I think you should

Drove up to Hillside Manor sometime after two a.m.
And talked a little while about the year
I guess the winter makes you laugh a little slower,
Makes you talk a little lower about the things you could not show her

And it’s been a long December and there’s reason to believe
Maybe this year will be better than the last
I can’t remember all the times I tried to tell my myself
To hold on to these moments as they pass

And it’s one more day up in the canyon
And it’s one more night in Hollywood
It’s been so long since I’ve seen the ocean…I guess I should

Walkaways

Gotta rush away she said
I’ve been to Boston before
anyway, this change I’ve been feeling
doesn’t make the rain fall
No big differences these days
Just the same old walkways
Someday Im going to stay, but not today…